The moment I feel someone else’s discomfort, pain, or element of fear, a tightening in my stomach takes hold momentarily recoiling from my truth. Sometimes I can see this coming and be mindful, while other times it is so difficult to move forward when I am knowingly impacting another person, in a way I “feel” their discomfort.
This heart I carry within this conditioned body and mind are so frequently in the midst of dialogue, often looking like conflict or rather a contradiction. Yes, in fact, this heart wants nothing more than for me to fly with this sage-wisdom I have come here to explore, while my body continually breaks down the elements of movement, slowing my progress, ultimately throwing up roadblocks along the path in which I am meant to journey.
The trauma I endured as a child, haunts my cellular being, with pings of doubt and mistrust. Constantly making a connection and untethering the strangulations of thought. My truth constantly in a battle to be seen and heard, as I fight, daily for this voice to be free from hesitation, doubt, fear, or limitation.
These adversities made me stronger, not weaker. The challenges I have and continue to face are full of opportunity to rise above, not fall down. The incredible perseverance I have geared myself up with is out of this world and one hell of an energy to experience. Never, will I stop. Never, will I concede to any energy lacking love and light. Never, will I falter in this purpose I have come here to learn and attain.