I found my way back home, decided to call my brother, resulting in two more calls to both our naturopath and a friend who is a Nurse Practitioner. They all encouraged me to go in and have my “heart” checked out. Reluctantly, I began the next steps of navigating insurance and finding a Doctor, in which I had been far removed for well over 6 years.

Several calls and lots of questioning eventually resulted in me calling my husband to let him know what was happening and that I had been recommended to go to Urgent Care. This is when my heart started feeling more and more funny. It did not seem… Well, I am not sure I have the correct words, but ultimately I found myself more nervous, fearful and insecure with what was about to happen.

As I sat in the Urgent Care facility I was more nervous and worried than out on that path with my heart trying to literally escape my chest. I listened to the medical input and answered the questions, feeling more and more uneasy. Eventually reminding myself, I am here to simply gather the science, nothing more, nothing less. I do not have to follow everything they say, nor do they have the answers, as they repeated over and over again.

I knew more about what was going on in my own body than they did. I knew about my history, I knew about the connection between my heart and my very soul in which it pulses throughout this fleshy body I am in. I also knew it was merely a message, more than a reason to panic and seek medical assistance. I too will potentially experience this Atrial fibrillation process just as my father, brother and grandmother, however, I, just like they, have a choice in what I do with it.

Perhaps my heart was wanting to bring awareness to the cage it is held back with. She was telling me the invisible walls of emotional scaring have broken free, so now what!? She was communicating with me more than ever with this excitement and she just got a bit carried away, or not. Maybe this was the point, for me to go through all of this, to be in this moment right now, right here, understanding the deeper message.

Doctors are miracle workers, healers, lovers of humanity. For this, I greatly respect and love them. My heart tells me, there is so much we are missing when we rely singly on one person’s expertise to evaluate “our” bodies. We are far more powerful in what happens within our body, than the greatest Doctor OR even healer. Bringing the two together with great awareness and respect for both, might just change the way we go about life and how we see our bodies.

I believe these gifts of opportunity have presented themselves to me a few times within this life, yet I never fully grasped the message in each one of them. In those moments before I felt like I could have nearly died or that could have been my last breath, but I survived, so why was that day, that instant so special? In the past, following those moments, I thought a bit about the “what if’s,” but often they were filled with a little more fear and the unknown, to which I was far more uncomfortable… I love how the messages keep coming until we receive them. 🙂

Yesterday, I was graciously bestowed a beautiful introduction to the soul within the cage I wear. I was honored with her beautiful message of the power we hold within our minds, impacting every function within our bodies. To this I extend my deepest gratitude to my angels and spirit guides walking with me daily, knowing this message needed to arrive one day. I have heard the message, I will honor this place. XO