My heart felt slightly broken; sad, disappointed and mildly confused. The more I gave recognition to this energy, the more it consumed my entire being. My head felt buzzy, my body ached, my energy dropped and nothing seemed to fully remedy this experience I was in.

In bed, under the covers, a soft sense of relief fell over me, however only brief. No matter how I logically understood all the events leading one to another, my emotional being insisted on taking a moment to sit in this ridiculously evolving pity party.

Perhaps the collective energy had been playing a part in the crescendo of self doubt, either way it felt as though I could not shake this life sucking parasite. I reminded myself, hourly, life is happening “for” me, not “to” me and this too shall pass; only providing momentary ease. As I connected with my core, I could hear a message from within, calling for me to step out and forward.

Our hearts are going to be broken. We are going to face big disappointment and these things will come at the most inopportune times and in surprising ways. Wallowing in a cesspool of victimhood perpetuates and exacerbates any and all difficulties/challenges within the context of the occurring hardship, no matter how big or small.

Perhaps we are meant to give ourselves permission to feel the intense disappointment, sadness or whatever emotion, for a time and then we remind ourselves we must focus on all the positives around, seeing the gifts in our lives and the blessings we have in every direction.

This journey is and will continue to be difficult. You are far stronger than you realize, connect with this power in those moments of doubt and difficulty. Trust when you have nothing more and surrender to the space of unknown. I love you! ALL!