Over the last few weeks I have noticed a couple specific shadows (things about myself I might not enjoy, yet I am aware) I am having a hard time embracing or working with them. I can feel when they are active, see the impact they bring into my life and yet I seem to be having an awkward dance each time they surface.

Releasing, just moving on or simply letting it go is not a part of this process, rather finding a way to honor these parts of me, equally. As my heart continues to shift, seeing these areas as a “part” of me, who I am in a whole picture I will begin to soften, bringing balance. The deepest places we have within us seem to be the most difficult to create this cohesive and loving relationship with.

Nasty judgments I force upon myself, while in the same moment I take them away. Frustration and anger fills my insides, knowing what is coming up is not what I want to be here. A deep desire to escape the moment overwhelms my body, giving me an entirely new view into what I might understand to be an addictive trait. This space I am working in feels heavy, intense, charged and vulnerable.

As I have continued to peal back the layers, my comfort in feeling naked seems to grow, yet this particular cloak feels overwhelmingly difficult to remove or even adjust. Perhaps I am missing the point; for all one knows this cloak is meant to morph into a cape, one that allows me to soar into this next part of my life here on this planet.

In this very moment I will begin to see this cloak as my cape, one that I must attend to with grace, compassion and humbleness. A cape without humility is simply an ugly burden one must wear, reminding them of the ego they have falsely inflated. Today brings opportunity and a new perspective, for this I am filled with humble gratitude….