More recently, I have felt unsettled, wandering in directions I would never normally consider, and questioning literally every aspect of my life and the choices I make. There is a thrilling energy that comes with all of this, while there is also a strange battle transpiring within my head at times. Conformity and conditioning are funny things to try and first recognize and then let go.

They are kind of like the peanut butter jar you try to wash out and find yourself standing there for way longer than expected, simply trying to scrape away lasting residue. When you think you are almost done, you realize now there is an oily film left over that needs more scrubbing. Working in this space has been amazing, while also extremely challenging.

The idea we are here to discover who we really are, what our purpose is and tune into our gifts, is often overwhelming. What if we just need to know we will forever be changing and evolving? In fact, what if there is not a singular purpose or singular “who” in which we are meant to be? I feel like I have been many people within this lifetime. And perhaps I am meant to be many more.

As judgments, attachment, and expectations fall away, the movement becomes more fluid and liberating to step more into whatever is next. I remind myself, frequently, to let thoughts float on through and allow room for future transitions and ease of movement. This practice has brought forth a sense of peace in knowing I am exactly where I am meant to be and doing exactly what I need to.