Eating The Fat in Life

Self-deprecation repels the fat in this life so full of yummy goodness. Unworthy thoughts, lead to self-harming patterns and a presence of somatic responses, where pain screams out for us to shift and make the adjustments, yet we validate and unconsciously welcome the pain, as it feels oh so familiar. The familiarity falsely shouts in our ear that we must engage and embrace this idea that pain must accompany the challenges in life.
What if the illusion is the lack of worthiness felt so deeply and widely within humanity? The illusion others determine or define our worth. The illusion we are in competition with others in this journey. We are born with innocence and purity that invokes an unapologetic presence, that is only squelched over years of others insisting the presence of who we are must conform and please the world we live in.
So frequently we reach a place in our journey where we begin to question this and ultimately attempt to heal all the wounds and trauma we have carried through life. Upon my travels, I found myself feeling overwhelmed, confused, and downright angry I could not just find the simple solution or this idea I have to circle back and continue cleaning up. A lingering resistance and aggravation that this journey felt so never-ending. Why is my internal dialogue so awful…
Even more so, why is my mind so powerful, my body takes on the pain in which I have subconsciously felt I deserved, even though my spirit knows is untrue? If my mind has this power, why wouldn’t it have the power to see the clarity of the illusions we are fed by this world? Perhaps the deeper illusion is that emotions are the distraction, when out of balance. Taking back our innocence, bringing in pleasure and playfulness reminds us of the unapologetic nature of young children who so purely and magically move through their day with a sense of presence and full expression. I welcome back this inner-child who was denied the innocence and playful expression…